Sweetness

Dear Emily,

It's been quite a while since I've written to you here. It amazes me how quickly time seems to be passing by. Each day you seem to be getting bigger, and changing in leaps. You amaze me, always. Every day I feel such gratefulness that you're a part of our family, that we all welcomed for you to find your way here. You are definitely loved, so very very much.

You have this extra sweetness about you - although your grasp is the strongest I've ever felt in a baby, your touch is the softest. Often when you nurse we'll be playing with eachothers fingers - light touches. Your skin is like silk. You are like the heavens and angels, mixed with a bit of spring warming sun.

Your eyes have started to turn brown. I watch you smile, look in to your eyes, and often wonder what you'll look like next year, or when you're two... three... five.... will you still hold this same precious spirit?

I think often about your baby brother or sister, a little one we decided to have in the future. Will s/he look like you? My heart continues to fall more and more in love with this child to be, there must be something very special about him or her.

You still seem to near stop breathing at night, but haven't stopped completely again - yet - since coming home from the hospital where nothing was seen. All was great for a good stretch, and then there it was again... but just extreme shallow breathing.... jiggled you a bit and you took a big breath. At least my mommy nerves aren't going haywire. You did this again last night. I do look forward to when you grow out of this. Your dad bought you this neat monitor that measures your breathing and sounds an alarm if you ever stop again.

Your dad is coming to see you again tomorrow. He is quite the cool dad ~ You seem to have an extra special dearness for him already... I do look forward to seeing if you end up being that "daddy's girl" as I suspect you may just be. He's gentle, wise, and smart... he is a great dad and loves you very much :)