Getting Closer

Dear my littlest angel -

Time is passing so fast! I'm getting more and more excited to meet you, although I haven't reached the anxious point for you to be born yet. I love holding you as close as I am, and love feeling you move inside of me.

You've been having many more active awake periods lately, which is so sweet to feel. You are still so gentle with your movements, I do thank you for this!

I wonder and look forward to seeing who you are in person. You feel to have such a gentle spirit inside, so different then any of the other children. When I get upset, I can't rant - I end up feeling disappointment more then anything else, and something the tears start in sadness. If this is who you are in person, it's the most sweetest way of being. I've really enjoyed your energy over these last number of months.

I am so lucky and feel so blessed to have you as a child to raise in this world.... although I suspect that you will most likely join our family with many lessons of your own to show all of us.

You still receive many hugs and kisses, especially from Katie early in the morning since she's the one that often wakes up next to you. She's mentioned to you that she looks forward to meeting you and that she's going to be a wonderful big sister, which I'm sure she will be... as well as your other two siblings also.

So loved, my little one, by so many people.

I still wonder, are you a boy? Or a girl? And continue to think about the moment you are born and I hold you against me. I'm not ready yet, while at the same time I can't wait. I am so blessed :)