At my 36 week appt last week everything measured and tested normal, but baby was posterior. Facing up rather then down. The midwife nor her assistant could find the baby's back, which led to the discussion of exercises I could do to help encourage the little one to settle in to place in a way that would lead to a more comfortable birth rather then one filled with back labor. The nice thing, is that should the baby decide to be born face up, it'll still be just fine :) I measured 35.5cm.
Through the week I could feel the baby spinning inside of me. Sometimes the back was there, other times I could feel little feet and hands pushing on my stomach - quite a neat and very precious feeling. A few days ago I started feeling pressure from the head on my cervix, and a wiggling shoulder next to my right hip bone. When the midwife measured me yesterday, she kept coming up with 35cm... hmm... finally got a measurement of 36cm which she was fine with and marked that down. I asked her to check (not internally) to see if the baby was engaged, she tried to wiggle his/her head and said that the baby was settled down in to there and pointed out where the shoulder was as well as the back. So as of yesterday, the baby was facing correctly. The spinning hasn't really been happening and the pressure on my cervix has increased, so I suspect that s/he's settled in to place..... but a baby can turn even during labor, so nothing is for certain either way.
Baby is still being so gentle, but certainly has picked up in activity. Last night Jonah felt the baby move around, and teared up. Quite a precious thing to see a 13yo male wipe away a tear - he is so excited. He says that he's going to be the first to give the baby tummy blow-bubbles, lol. He is going to be such a wonderful big brother.
Katie asked me yesterday if she could be in the tub with me when I'm in labor - of course!! This is what I love about homebirthing... however a mom would like things to go, it can happen.
The pressure downwards on my cervix from the baby's head has been increasing. It's more so today then it was yesterday... all part of preparing things for labor. I've been working on cleaning and doing yard work, making sure that things are ready and I wont have to worry about them for a while after the baby is born, and thankful to Jen who's been over helping too.
I am so thankful to the dad for offering a part of himself so my family could be complete - that after the giving of surrogacy that my own children have done, that they can experience a sibling they so very much wanted also. Thankful I too am about to hold a child I so deeply wanted but wasn't sure if would ever come to be.... and hope that I can help to give the dad such a wonderful experience too. Life is amazing, and filled with so much thanks.
I have found a part of my life coming to a close - as much as I hope to have a sibling for Cassidy, it's becoming more questionable if that will happen. If that's the case, the creating and giving of life either as a surrogate or for my own family will be finished. The door will have closed. The rescue organization I've been a part of for so long, the time with that is clearly coming to an end also. So much is ending, but at the same time so many new things are beginning. I finally life in a little house, on property where my children can experience raising of animals, where the kids could run, where my horses are with me, where my children can learn to live simply and cherish what life has to offer rather then placing value only on materialistic items and how much they have. I'm finally able to restart my business again, and the possibilities are endless.
Life is amazing.... and one of the most precious parts of it is moving inside of me, soon to enter this world and in to the arms of so many who already deeply love him/her.
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