32w2d

Dear Baby -

Today I had a midwife appt for you. Your home measured 34cm and heart rate was in the 130's. It's still such a sweet sound to hear your heartbeat on the doppler.

There was a student midwife who took my vitals and tried to hear your heartbeat first with a stethoscope type instrument. She found your heartbeat but then you moved and she couldn't find it again. She tried to feel for your position but wasn't having much luck. She asked where I had felt you kicking, and I showed her (top right side) and mentioned that you were head down. The midwife checked, and definitely felt your head but she too couldn't find your bum. She said that you had lots of room in there :)

What a sweet gentle being you are - so gentle with your movements.

I saw a friend yesterday who I haven't seen for about two years. She didn't know I was pregnant. She asked if I knew if you were a boy or a girl - I didn't - and she stopped and after a moment said that she felt 'boy'... that all she could see was a little baby buddha boy :)

What a special moment it's going to be, to deliver you (so special just in itself) - the moment of looking to see if you are Aden or Emily. I find myself thinking about that moment more and more, as the weeks pass by. Thinking about your birth... laboring with you... pushing you out.... and holding you for the very first time. I think about the moment your placed in your dads arms, and how he'll feel. What sweet thoughts :)

Today I scheduled the long awaited 4D ultrasound appt that your dad has been waiting for. He's been so sweet and patient in his waiting. It's the 19th at 3:15. I look forward to seeing your little face and body.... but I still want whether your a boy or a girl to stay a surprise, so I'll be closing my eyes and ears when the lady with the want takes a look. I think your dad wants to know, so he'll be the only one! What a sweet secret for him to hold all to himself :)

I find myself melting when talking about your dad to another, what a sweet and kind person he is, and how lucky you are to be able to have him in your life. You really are. And, we all are very lucky and blessed to have you in all of our lives. You are so deeply loved and cherished.