Dreams

I woke up this morning and went to wake Jonah up. He woke up excited, saying that he had a dream... he dreamed about this baby and the birth. He went on to tell me that I ended up delivering inside (oh please no), in the water tub, that the labor was quick - only 1hr of "little nudges" to 4hrs of hard labor... 5hrs total (he got a few words from me on that one, short labors hurt more!). He melted when he went on to explain that he saw the baby's face, and that it was a boy.

Hmm, a boy. Only one person knows if this is correct or not, and that would be the baby's dad. I'm so glad that he was able to have the choice to know or not, and I was able to have the choice to not know. I'm so glad I wanted, there's such a sense of wonderment. The kids can't wait to see :)

Jonah went on to say that he thought I'd have this baby tonight or tomorrow. Well, we'll see. It could happen! Tomorrow would be wonderful, it's suppose to be a decent day and I can be OUTSIDE! But it could also be another handful of days. The waiting is interesting, I feel like there's a time clock ticking away and counting down. The time is coming :)

Today is definitely much more difficult to move around. I am waddling, even more so. I feel such heaviness. This afternoon I laid on the bed talking to Jen, but on my back. When I went to get up I felt my legs were going to give out, my back hurt terribly. I ended up on my hands and knees, trying to encourage the baby to turn around so whatever way it's head was pointing it would change and get off the nerve it was pinch. Ouch. I have spent much of the day just sitting, relaxing - definitely one of the more "lazy" days. But it's gloomy outside, and rainy. Maybe tomorrow I'll get a few more things done.... unless labor finds it's way to my door.

I've also felt another change today, I desire closeness. Jennifer was here for a little while, and I didn't want her to leave. My kids are being wonderful, quiet, getting along and playing together.... my son is being extremely helpful and cooperative, but there's this desire to just have female energy close. Wonder if that means labor is close? Or, I'm just a whiny very pregnant mama with a lower back ache that her back is less then delighted with :)

The kids are hungry, time to go cook. They're asking for steak, or stir-fry, guess we'll see what ends up in the dinner pan!