Grumbles

Today I hit a challenge. A disappointment. I don't appreciate how I was left feeling, it was a feeling of firmness - almost bitterness. I was frustrated.

With the weather being quite rainy lately, my deep desire to deliver outside, along with the fact that I'm two days away from my due date.... I chose to call the midwife to find out what type of encouragements for labor they'd suggest. To help answer some questions and concerns that I had, so I could come to a decision on choices. At that time, the weather report had said Monday was going to be sunny (tomorrow) with rain to follow the next few days. I wanted to catch tomorrow.

No suggestions were made. Just how she doesn't agree with inducing, how it can cause a more difficult labor as well as cause interventions needing to happen.

I was so frustrated. That's not what I was asking. My questions weren't answered, and certainly no suggestions were made. Even just the basic things such as sex, orgasms, curb walking, nipple stimulation, etc... things that will bring on/encourage labor if a body is ready. I feel uncomfortable with the other type of encouragements such as castor oil, but I had some questions if they felt it was a great way.

I felt as though I lost my desire to have this particular midwife at my birth, and that if she was there much of what I wanted may be discouraged if she didn't agree with it. She's a wonderful midwife, don't get me wrong, just the strength in this area just didn't mesh with my personality or what I needed. I do hope she's not the one on call when labor starts.

The other two.... one calls herself a tree loving hippy :) I mentioned my desire to deliver outside and she asked to just be provided with an umbrella since she didn't want to get rained on if it was raining... and explained for the well being of the baby how things would have to go following the birth and keeping the baby warm and safe. She's awesome! The other, just an incredible down to earth open and earthly spiritual person. Just wonderful!

Looking at the weather report tonight, it shows sun for Tuesday also. I'm glad. I'd much rather not encourage anything, just relax and go with things, this gives two days for something to start :) Otherwise, the nice weather is back again Friday and through the weekend. Wonder if I haven't delivered by Tuesday I can tell my body it's on a time out until Friday :P

Tonight I am sitting and rocking on a ball that Jen brought over for me to sit on. Ahhhhh, so much more comfortable then a regular seat. I've continued to have some contractions off and on, nothing serious just sweet ones that leave me smiling at what soon is to come.